I’m Panicking

Why am I panicking? Because my pants are too tight.  Like way too tight, like will these even button tight.  I can’t go back to where I was. I REFUSE to go back up a pants size.   I looked at my fat pictures today, I was miserable back then.  I know that I need to write down all of my food.  Even though it feels dumb, like writing down every time you pee;  It’s something I’m going to have to do. I have to stop fighting myself… I’ve been whining and complaining to my co-worker girl friend.  And, instead of being fake and saying, girl you look just fine.  She said I’m bringing a healthy lunch for us tomorrow.  She brought a weight watcher recipe with egg noodles, chicken breast, asparagus and broccoli.  Then we walked the last half hour of our break.  Today, I brought chili with chopped red and yellow peppers for our lunch.  Then we power walked again for a half hour.  The sun was shining bright today, I told her we had to stay in the shade, so I wouldn’t be too sweaty, and go back to work smelling like a third grader.  I guess I’ll have to bring some extra deodorant ….

Mr. Man found my blog.  He sent me a text message while I was at work.  It said “I got on ur website it is awesome”  I was really excited that he finally read it since it’s a major part of life and very special to me, but then I thought about all my private stuff  that I tell y’all and was a little worried.  When we talked later that night he told me he thought my blog was “sexy”…. “Sexy???” I asked.  Clearly he missed the “HolyCrap” colonics post LOL! ….. I said what do you mean by sexy?   He said that he liked that I chronicled everything from our first date, our couple workouts up until now, and that it made him feel special.  I’m so uncensored, but glad that he still liked it.    Then he suggested that we go to dance lessons.  That’s something I’ve never done as an adult.  I found a local dance group that does a 1 hour Tango dance lesson, and then a party at the Ritz to show off everything you learned.  It sounds like a ton of fun.  I think it will make me feel like Morticia in the Addams Family Movie…..He said I hope I don’t step on your feet.  I said “You better not”  Mr. Man is 6’2 tall and size 14 shoe and I’m 5’3 & ½. (Yeah my ½ inch counts).  Anyway, I can’t wait to tell you guys all about it!

What Did Carli Eat Today?

B – Lemon Poppy seed Muffin & Skim Milk & Coffee

L- Chili I made last night – no crackers

S- Chicken breast slice on a tortilla with salsa

D- Chicken, spinach and Feta Cheese Crepe, Peach Tea Cocktail with my friends